During the two weeks following Mum’s death, I was acutely aware of the support that I received from friends, family and colleagues. I busied myself with organising, planning and arranging things. I did anything to stop myself from falling apart in front of anyone but inside was hurting and not sure how to deal with it. My sensible brain keeps reminding me that she was ill for a long time and we knew this was coming… my emotional brain keeps reminding me that she was young at 70. When will I start to see beyond this? When will I stop crying? When will this physical pain go away?