It’s difficult being focussed on anything. I’m either trying to handle Mum’s death, sorting out the many tasks that we need to do to notify companies and people of Mum’s passing or stressing about my impending operation – being reminded the whole time by the pain I feel in my breast which still catches me off guard. I’m still finding it difficult to sleep and can’t get comfortable anymore as I sleep on my right side or my front – neither of which is an option without waking me up ouchy.