Before we close the door on 2009, I’d like to briefly reflect. I started the year in Australia with some dear friends. I discovered NLP and qualify as a Neuro Linguistic Practitioner, attend NLP groups and became an Affiliate of the Association of Coaching. I spent time with my Mum before she passed away in August and understand more about her past and be able to share with her some of my dreams for my future. I was diagnosed with a rare cancer, Phyllodes Tumour (Cystosarcoma Phylloides). Although I, of course, wouldn’t wish to re-live my 2009, I’m grateful for the experiences and learnings that I gained from my 2009 and for the changes in my views, priorities and outlook this has given me.
Before we move on, I would also like to say a truly heartfelt THANK YOU to all of you who listened to me, shared my journey, held my hand and supported me. I’m incredibly thankful to have such special friends and family (new and old, near and far).
I believe that in life we all have choices and should try everything, at least once, to see if we like it… I can honestly say that I’ve tried cancer and I didn’t like it much, it just didn’t agree with me, we’re not compatible. No, it’s just not for me. I know I don’t have the receipt but I’m sending it back to wherever it came from. So for once you don’t need to bother trying it… I’ve done it for you… take it from me, you won’t like it… tick that checkbox and move on!
Now to move on… ‘fession time. I’m not one who has ever written a long list of resolutions, simply because by the time I get to write them down, I’ve usually already broken them… so I have a wish list or a list of goals to achieve in the coming year…
My 2010, in no particular order… I’d like to do more fun stuff. I’d like to travel more. I’d like to catch up with my friends more often and to meet up with those of you I’ve not seen in a while… some of you for a very long time. I’d like to lose weight. I’d like to love. I’d like to have a laugh – a real laugh, a laugh that sneaks up on you and almost makes you pee your pants! I’d like to go to the opera. I’d like to go sit in Berkeley Square. I’d like to learn more and put into practice NLP and coaching techniques. I’d like to see H&B have the best wedding day ever. I’d like to eat some really really good sushi. I’d like to hug and be hugged. I’d like to hang out in some of the old haunts with my friends and dine in style with others. I’d like to prepare some fantabulous meals and share them with my friends. I’d like to always remember that there is no such thing as failure – just that you can learn from all experiences. I’d like to be living in my own house again. I’d like to remember what it’s really all about. I’d like to finally create the art installation I’ve been dreaming of. I’d like to see the NHS system have a code for recording Phyllodes Tumours. I’d like to feel loved. I’d like to take breakfast at The Wolseley, take tea in Sketch, champagne at The Soho House, eat a degustation menu at The Square and closing drinks at Mortons (foodie friends apply here!). I’d like to feel appreciated for the job that I do. I’d like to hear Celeste, Martha, Evie and Naomi call me Auntie Anna (or I’ll accept HAuntie HAnna). I’d like to always remember that life waits for nobody. I’d like to make a difference. I’d like to have less clutter and be more organised. I’d like to put in the application for a bench in Berkeley Square. I’d like to support others the way that they’ve supported me. I’d like to label up all my photos and to file my paperwork. I’d like to put all the vinyl into a digital format and be able to listen to it on my ipod. I’d like to remember those who are no longer with us by recalling funny stories and kind memories. I’d like to jump on a plane and not know where I’m going. I’d like to make someone I don’t know, smile! Most importantly, I’d like to remember how to live again.
So hold on tight… I’ve got a lot to achieve in 2010!
Finally, a few ‘borrowed‘ words…
Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. And today? Today is a gift. That’s why we call it the present. ~Babatunde Olatunji
Why be saddled with this thing called life expectancy? Of what relevance to an individual is such a statistic? Am I to concern myself with an allotment of days I never had and was never promised? Must I check off each day of my life as if I am subtracting from this imaginary hoard? No, on the contrary, I will add each day of my life to my treasure of days lived. And with each day, my treasure will grow, not diminish. ~Robert Brault