I can’t believe it’s been five years since you left. Sometimes it still feels like yesterday when we watched you close your eyes and go to sleep. Sometimes it feels like forever since I heard your voice.
So often I find myself reaching for the phone to tell you something or just to have a chat – I wonder when I’ll stop doing that?
As I start a new chapter in my life, I’ve been sorting through some more of your things and found some great pictures and cards. My home phone also broke recently so I plugged in my old one only to discover a whole heap of voicemail messages from you. How strange to hear our voice after all these years and to know that I won’t hear it again.
Five years since you passed is also significant for me and my health. I found the lump on the morning of your funeral. Gosh it’s been a strange five years. Five years is so significant in cancer terms as most are able to consider it to be the point of ‘all clear’. As mine was a special/unique/rare/whatever variety, I get to continue the regular checks beyond the five years. It’s so odd to think you knew nothing of this part of my life, the cancer bit!
Anyway, thought it was time to post some more pictures of you…
Miss you Mum